schooling

I'm getting some schooling this morning. On the adoption process and my own faith. In each step of the way, I learn something new.

After not being sent a referral from yesterday's shared list, I won't lie, it was pretty discouraging. We knew it was coming and went to bed feeling like little five-year-olds on Christmas Eve. Of course, we knew we may not get a referral. We were told the list was a small one. But you still hope. And pray. And beg plead.

So, no, we didn't need the camera and tripod that were set up in the dining room. We don't have a file we're digesting. We don't have anything to send to the doctor who was put on notice in case we needed his expertise. And we certainly don't have a picture of a little face.

BUT, we do have a mighty God. The same One we had yesterday. The same One who's been with us this whole time. We will not miss out on our daughter. She'll show up when we're all ready for each other.

 I am pressed but not crushed
persecuted, but not abandoned
struck down, but not destroyed
  I am blessed beyond the curse,
for His promise will endure
  and His joy is going to be my strength

{Delirious - Trading My Sorrows lyrics}